my body feels like it's off.i can't keep up with school and my life. i feel like i'm being pushed to my limits and i don't want to be in that place again. i feel like i'm going to relapse into old behaviours and mannerisms and i'm scared of that. ashley and i are okay, billie and i are okay ashley and billie are still together. i wanted to hang out witrh her tonight but she said something about meeting steph so i was a little hesitant but i have ot go to driving thing tonight so i may not be going out.
billie helped me with my project and let me wear his jacket because i was cold
it smelled good he smells good =]
i swear i LEAPED for the phone because i thought he called last night literally LEAPED off my be and dove for my phone
i must be paranoid
i don't know there's just something about him that attracts me to him-makes me want to be around him
like the pull i get from the ocean
that click when i know that this guy is real-i don't want to be cliche but i feel like i relate to him on a level


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i don't know i can't explain it